I just finished watching Poltergeist, a film I couldn’t seem to get enough of as a child. That should have been a clue to my parents that I was a little different from the other kids but that’s a whole other issue. Anyways, I had to practically beg my son to watch it with me. It wasn’t because I was scared but because I wanted to spend some quality time with him and watching a movie is one of the best ways in my opinion. I did manage to get him to watch Arthur with me and he took to Dudley Moore like I did, but then again who doesn’t like Cuddly Dudley? We do like to watch The Simpsons together while eating pizza. I do cherish our time together usually. There are times when being a parent is unbearable and you just want to run as far away as you possibly can. There are times when I need my space. I usually have a partner, 2 kids and a cat all needing my attention.
On a normal day my partner goes to work. The kids go to school and daycare then I am left to start my day. I use this time to run errands, housework and whatever else needs to be done or even just catch up on sleep. I pick up the baby around noon then my son comes home around 5pm After that the day is spent and I wait about an hour for my companion to come home. I always look forward to him coming home at night so he can take over with the the kids and we can both talk about our day. This week, however, everyone is out for the week. Another words, they are all home with me.
I really don’t think it’s a good thing if me and my partner spend morning, noon and night together. He had mentioned working from home a few times. NO NO NO. I told him that would not be a good thing. I have to admit, some days like today, my partner’s presence bothers me. I feel so guilty saying it. I think it’s because when he’s around I don’t get as much done as I normally would. Also, I don’t like the feeling of someone around me all the time. I feel smothered. It’s just the way I am, can’t help it. This morning he was hovering over me asking me something while I was still trying to sleep which I did not care to respond to. He knows not to mess with me so damn early. Don’t piss me off first thing in the morning then ask what’s wrong. It’s been 11 years, you would think he had learned his lesson by now. Needless to say,that set the tune for the whole day.
When I’m home with the kids I am usually happy but every so often I feel like going off the rails and when my partner comes home I lock myself in my room and chill for a while. One day last week was one such day. My son was in the den playing video games all day which was probably a factor in my incandescent rage. My daughter did something to my computer and I thought she had broken it. I was upset and my son heard me fussing, apparently loudly enough to where he could hear it over his video games. He came racing in there while I was under the computer desk and put a protective hand over his sister and asked me what was going on. I think he thought I was going to do something to her. I love my children with all my heart and I would rather hurt my myself before doing anything to them. I really don’t know why he thought I posed a risk to his sister but it did make me feel very happy to know that he was willing to protect her and should anything ever happen to me or her father that would be there to protect her. That’s what big brothers are supposed to do. Maybe I didn’t do so badly with him after all.
Lastly we come to the cat. She forever hounds me morning, noon and night. She makes me escort her to the basement to eat. If she can see the bottom of her bowl she is not happy. She wants her food refreshed every time she gets peckish. Sometimes she just wants you to touch it. I have no idea why. It get’s exhausting. If I had the money I would pay someone to stand there and touch her food. The minute I lay down she is on top of me and when I go to the bathroom she waits right next to the toilet. I have no idea why she does that. Maybe she thinks the minute her little back is turned I will start seeing other cats. She is the most jealous cat I have ever encountered. She is definitely part of the family and we love her. She is protective of the kids and takes turns sleeping with each of them. That means so much to me that I am willing to touch her food any time.
I may get irritable and want to be alone sometimes but I would not trade what I have for all the tea in China. Never Ever 
I hear ya about needing some alone (me) time. I too can be very moody if I don’t get it. The part about your cat had me laughing. Speaking of which, I think I’ll go cuddle up with mine a watch a movie. Hocus Pocus,The Mummy, and Orphan are on tonight. I luv Halloween time.
I’ve seen Hocus Pocus but I don’t remember the other 2. I like Halloween too:)